fold the map

my younger brother graduated recently.
It makes me happy. It makes me feel old.
I'm Finally getting Life Straight. I will continue this.
Once i Move to my
short term Residence, i will be reading/writing more.
Something i keep
trying to Implement as a renewed hobby..
Work.Gym.Lady time.Friends.Repeat.
new car. new leaf.
new continuations of life.

what a metaphysical paradox

its great when motivation, and clarity burst through the seems.
my list of To Do's is almost all crossed out.
i went to the gym today without any accompaniment
it was really nice actually, i motivated myself more so
than when with company. i ended up sweating like a pig
in the end though, but hey its all in good progress.

a room with no doors

work makes me feel like im in a room with no doors.
stuck running in place.

kaliko

The other day i ventured to a new landscape
after a drawn out ride across the paved route
we arrived at our destination
the commoners looked at us
as if we were tourists.
lost and confused
no map would be able to help us
we sat in our seats
unsure what to expect
just a microphone stood on-stage.
eager i sat at the edge of my seating
and was captivated by my surroundings
the theater looked immaculate.
soon my attention stood forth
as our speaker came to
Henry Rollins
His words were like a wildfire
blazing through destroying many
barriers and hooking onto anything
that would listen.
it all went to hastily because
before i knew it, it was over
3 hours had come and gone.
For Mister Rollins spoke
not with a single drop of water
or a seconds worth of silence.

I feel as if im on fire for the answer
again.
It makes me want to write.
it makes me want to read.
it makes me want to feel alive.
Henry rollins, Buddy Wakefield
such people are so inspiring.
my heart warms.
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moving timez soon.

re-bo0t

its funny what the undo button can do.
on accident. so much written.gone.in.seconds.
my mind has been blank for days.
uncertain.where.shall.i.live?
anxiety within has been building.
yet i stand calm.Today.was.a.day.
i was alone all day.The.first.in.
a really long time.I've kept busy
with surrounding myself with others.
Hiding.it.seems.
i.purged.my.room.today.after.3.weeks.
of not cleaning.
I am listening to Sufjan Stevens a.t.m.
Good.times.
i want to be doing more with my time.
why am i allowing such routine to
copy and repeat. i was doing so good.
break.the.mold.
we.cant.rewind.like.a.video.
after.being.sick.for.a.week.straight.
i'm finally feeling better. thank god.
waking up crippled is never good.
reminds.me.when.i.had.swine.flu.

\43 min phone break/

\43 min phone break/

just got off the phone with the lil lady.
its.funny.how.the.universe.unfolds.itself.
sometimes.my.mood.now.was.not.what.it.was
when i started writing this.
i feel much better. not that i was depressed
or anything before.
...
these clouds bleed crimson
for the heavens are burning
we awoke the great deceiver.
angels fall by the masses
the streets open up swallowing
them whole.
unsheathe thine swords brethren
the hour is nigh
demons crawl this land
for far to long
our future resides in each-other

zoomancer

the other day we went to the Zoo, coincidently on the
windiest day of the year hahah. halfway through our
endeavor the zoo lost power. so that was interesting
but we still had a blast. i took almost 100 photos.



Yesterday i had been involved in the "official" like manner
of courtship and meeting the father. It nearly wasn't as bad as
i had thought. I'm truly glad her mother met me and adores me before
the whole "dating" part was put into the equation.

its not ironic its obvious

it was ironic recieving this. which stands true.
thus i will. she makes me happy. I am at utter
ease and calm, when she is near.
Never do i second guess anything with her,
unlike the rest. which usually i was right about.
things are also going very well.
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today i went to a baseball game with 3 good friends.
it was wonderful, funny how things work out
receiving 3 free tickets. I was just talking
about going to a baseball game last week.
Due to not going to one in 15years or more,
the experience is always fun.
Surrounding myself with the right people
just continues to make my life happier.
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also lately i am finding myself become
more frustrated at the small things.
it comes and goes, which scares me.
the past 3 days at least.
i hope this bomb can be defused.
when speaking with her it eases me
this i enjoi.