re-bo0t

its funny what the undo button can do.
on accident. so much written.gone.in.seconds.
my mind has been blank for days.
uncertain.where.shall.i.live?
anxiety within has been building.
yet i stand calm.Today.was.a.day.
i was alone all day.The.first.in.
a really long time.I've kept busy
with surrounding myself with others.
Hiding.it.seems.
i.purged.my.room.today.after.3.weeks.
of not cleaning.
I am listening to Sufjan Stevens a.t.m.
Good.times.
i want to be doing more with my time.
why am i allowing such routine to
copy and repeat. i was doing so good.
break.the.mold.
we.cant.rewind.like.a.video.
after.being.sick.for.a.week.straight.
i'm finally feeling better. thank god.
waking up crippled is never good.
reminds.me.when.i.had.swine.flu.

\43 min phone break/

\43 min phone break/

just got off the phone with the lil lady.
its.funny.how.the.universe.unfolds.itself.
sometimes.my.mood.now.was.not.what.it.was
when i started writing this.
i feel much better. not that i was depressed
or anything before.
...
these clouds bleed crimson
for the heavens are burning
we awoke the great deceiver.
angels fall by the masses
the streets open up swallowing
them whole.
unsheathe thine swords brethren
the hour is nigh
demons crawl this land
for far to long
our future resides in each-other

zoomancer

the other day we went to the Zoo, coincidently on the
windiest day of the year hahah. halfway through our
endeavor the zoo lost power. so that was interesting
but we still had a blast. i took almost 100 photos.



Yesterday i had been involved in the "official" like manner
of courtship and meeting the father. It nearly wasn't as bad as
i had thought. I'm truly glad her mother met me and adores me before
the whole "dating" part was put into the equation.

its not ironic its obvious

it was ironic recieving this. which stands true.
thus i will. she makes me happy. I am at utter
ease and calm, when she is near.
Never do i second guess anything with her,
unlike the rest. which usually i was right about.
things are also going very well.
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today i went to a baseball game with 3 good friends.
it was wonderful, funny how things work out
receiving 3 free tickets. I was just talking
about going to a baseball game last week.
Due to not going to one in 15years or more,
the experience is always fun.
Surrounding myself with the right people
just continues to make my life happier.
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also lately i am finding myself become
more frustrated at the small things.
it comes and goes, which scares me.
the past 3 days at least.
i hope this bomb can be defused.
when speaking with her it eases me
this i enjoi.