designer skyline

on his back porch he and her sit
making idle chat as the sun begins to set
easing the tention she giggles
looking off into the distance she puts her hair up
gently he smiles and glazed over are his eyes
realizing what is in front of him.
the sky blends into a redish orange
as the sun begins to fade behind the trees
look she says
isnt it beautiful
not taking his attention of her
he humbly agrees.
you have no idea
sometimes i wish i can just go
to were the sun and the
ocean meet she confesses
hesitant to truly say what he wishes
confidently replying
let me take you there.
dont be silly smirkingly she looks at him.
im not. let me take you there. he admits.

starting new from old.

i removed myself from social media such as Facebook.
lets see how this goes
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we sometimes regret.
we to often take for granted.
we rarely express our true emotion.
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Thinking and looking back on experiences of past
like most i look upon myself and wish
i knew then what i know now.
to maybe fix or change the way
things may have gone or went.
not saying i live in the past.
but wish it would have
created better bridges of the future.
so many people have touched and been
apart of my heart.
my life.
done so much yet i expressed it in all
the wrong ways
or not at all.
we often at least myself feel like just a blink
in someones history soon to be forgotten
or just one line in a novel.
I think of you often.
I feel like this is my time, not to escape
but start anew. I am uncertain and scared.
To go to a place where no one knows my name
blank page. will i even know how to be.
have i lost my way.
will i find the right one I've always wanted to?
or am i just running from haunting places and faces.
thank you so dearly from the bottom of my heart
despite it ending abruptly, harshly, quietly
whichever way it may have ended or gone.
You have and still mean the world to me
without you even knowing it.
i miss you all dearly.
even if your still near.
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play for beauty that says it all.

hope for now.

today we snuck past the mindfields. the trenches were cold
and damp
we barely made it out alive.
the shadows kept us warm from the darkness outside.
i can still hear the footsteps.
M couldnt sit still as his feet ruffled
the dead leaves below his feet,
C would whimper from time to time as K
kept violently silent. Myself,
i kept my eyes shut for fear of what may come.
we were running behind the gates of hell.
the sound of shutting doors sounded
of cellar walls caving in upon us.
the air became thin and our lungs became weak.
each hallway feeling neverending
we hear faint screams from behind us, but we dare not look back.
this is only the beginning of the end.
C tripped over some wiring, we quickly
helped him up as the screams became more clear.
stumbling from the damp flooring
we move with much haste.
there is a glimmer of hope as we notice a clearing.
then suddenly a darkened figure stands between the doorway.
M shudders and becomes lifeless in place.
K and I grab the other two and sneak into the nearest door.
slamming the door shut behind us.
gasping for air it feels as if it may be our last.

realization

we are all guilty of this. To often we neglect and take for granted people,
and those who are within our lives. its funny how a location or place
can bring up fond memories of olde with those who were inseparable to
you in life at that time, then often realizing you have lost touch
with them or dont contact them as often as you wish.
i went to the ocean today, my haven as you will. westport.
Alot has been going on in life, and it could be stressful
but as soon as i stepped foot onto the sand it all
vanished, and i felt revived. It reminded me why the water
centers me and makes me calm.
i can tell a growth within me as the past month and it makes me
happy to see im finally on a path to the discovry of self.

forever and a day

today was an exuberant day. life is changing. an evolution as you will.
leaving work early to spend time with good people was well needed.
though seeing caged animals. reminds me ( not to the extent obviously) maybe
more so metaphorically is how i have felt for so long.
by the end of this year my plans will be in motion.
i am happy taking photos once again.
the 2 hour gym sessions each day i have pushed myself into
has shown me the dedication that is needed to obtain my goal.
due to much hesitation and fear i lead myself into has
hindered me to the crippling state of monotony i have endured for so long.
thank goodness for those people who have come back into my life
and give me the breath of fresh air well needed.

this is all