realization

we are all guilty of this. To often we neglect and take for granted people,
and those who are within our lives. its funny how a location or place
can bring up fond memories of olde with those who were inseparable to
you in life at that time, then often realizing you have lost touch
with them or dont contact them as often as you wish.
i went to the ocean today, my haven as you will. westport.
Alot has been going on in life, and it could be stressful
but as soon as i stepped foot onto the sand it all
vanished, and i felt revived. It reminded me why the water
centers me and makes me calm.
i can tell a growth within me as the past month and it makes me
happy to see im finally on a path to the discovry of self.

forever and a day

today was an exuberant day. life is changing. an evolution as you will.
leaving work early to spend time with good people was well needed.
though seeing caged animals. reminds me ( not to the extent obviously) maybe
more so metaphorically is how i have felt for so long.
by the end of this year my plans will be in motion.
i am happy taking photos once again.
the 2 hour gym sessions each day i have pushed myself into
has shown me the dedication that is needed to obtain my goal.
due to much hesitation and fear i lead myself into has
hindered me to the crippling state of monotony i have endured for so long.
thank goodness for those people who have come back into my life
and give me the breath of fresh air well needed.

this is all

knight skie

as he stands within the field,
he looks upon the diamonds in the night sky
luminous is the moons glow.
Looking up to it as if its going to reply
speaking softly to himself
"i think of you from time to time, in my passings,
I see your face many times a day.
Does this happen with you?
dearest moon?
I often forget you are up there, as if you never where.
i hope its not the same for you as I. stay beautiful."
he suddenly sighs
after returning his gaze back to the twinkling diamonds

fear knot

"why don't you tell me you love me" she requested.
while turning onto her belly, head in hands.
squinting due to the sun. he musters
"because i fear"
tilting her head perplexed.
"confused? however so."
with a heavy set sigh he sputters
"baby you know how i feel"
bending her legs up kicking them to and fro.
he sits up leaning back up against the tree.
brushing his hair from face.
"I fear we may go down a path we cannot turn back from."
he looking off into the distance.
the girl then replying with a smile.
all thats left is the silhouette
of the couple falling into each-others arms,
as the setting sun collapses into the eve.

the 4th of ju-lie

with the sound of explosions deafening the ear
i close my eyes to feel apart of history
the mind warps to the colonial times
each blast shattering and rumbling the skies
re-creates the memories of wars past
cannons smoke fills the air
blood curdling screams voice the lands
as the evening comes to its end
paranoia fills my frame
i cannot rest

welcome home

it astounds me that the chest cavity
carries one of the most blessed
parts of the human anatamoy
that it allows us to express,feel and share
so much love to ourselves and others.
to often we forget to express our gratitude of our
fellow man. TO often do we express and glorify
the negative we sometimes see in another.
rather than to invest time and enjoy the accompaniment
of the person right next to you.
we all experience everything in life for a reason
we may not always know right away or why.
Yet it helps build us, and allows us to share
with those around our experience to empathize
with what they may be enduring.
allowing us to initially become closer and love one another
hatred is such a weakness.
crawl in humility. before standing in honor.
im so grateful for my life and what i have experienced
in my short 22 thus far.
the people in my life bless me more than they will know.
i love. i thank you.

new design

this uncharted terrain
beseech's me
i must explore
unfolding the map
where i should lay
it turns blank
bewildered
by the thought
my heart seeks guidance
i shall lay ink to
this chart
paving my own way
where many shall
soon follow